Now we all know that I have been in therapy and I have read enough self help books to know this is can lead me into the darkness. You see right at this moment, I am thinking that this is a dark and twisted world.
All weekend I have been doing a lot of reflecting . Have I really changed at all , because it ( meaning my mind) keeps coming back to one thing . Revenge !! Ok you don’t know the whole story but. recently I have allowed myself to dance with the most manipulative person that I have ever met. And you have guess it, I danced as if I was dancing on sunshine.
Then a funny thing happened, my eyes opened wide and I saw the person standing before me with a clear mind . My first thought was “ I SEE YOU”.
I started this post last night . The little devil standing over my shoulder , had this little evil smirk on it’s face , looking back that was me . I wanted to do nothing more than put all this mindfulness training , yoga , Dr. Phil, Oprah along with everything other self help book I am reading and kick them to the curb.
I could see the transformation in progress. I was on a ass kicking mission and I wanted the world to know it. Something told me to stop writing . Was it the inner angel saying rather yelling to “cut the crap”? I don’t know. What else could I do? The answer was let it go and I started surfing with the TV remote..BINGO!
The Real Housewives of Beverly Hills ( rich brats ).
I woke up at 7am and did my best to follow my daily routine. The smoothies, taking a half hour of quiet time , some call this meditation. Since my mind is racing most of the time I actually only feel the calm soothing moments during the last 5 or 10 mins. Still I am trying to find the calm me. I just do it.
Followed by self care , bla , bla bla. All while thinking to myself , I am in a good place. I am above it all, I can overcome this need to reach out and join the rest of the twisted world and put my chubby foot up your ass.
You know who you are , and don’t let the new and improved me fool you . Instead of that little devil standing over my shoulder, I hear the sassy no nonsense voice of Nene Leakes from the “The Real Housewives of Atlanta” standing over my shoulder, whether this is good or bad, you know the shit is just getting started.
Oh Lord , I need a smoothie , Yep, that’s right , breaking bad just can’t be helped.
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Sometimes, in my darker (or let’s say more argumentative/contrary moods) I want to be NEGATIVE. We all know those phrases that we tell ourselves and our best friends and the people we care for, while thinking, somewhere in our heart of hearts ‘Do I really MEAN that?’. For instance:
He just doesn’t deserve you.
Actually, you ARE very irritating, and did anyone ever tell you NOT to try to make your lips look bigger by drawing them on with lipstick?
Honesty is very important in a relationship.
Sure it is. As long as you don’t have anything too awful to say. In a relationship, you have to decide early on if you’re going to be honest, or liked. If you ARE going to get into major lying, don’t sprinkle it with occasional truth, it’ll only spoil the flavour. The best lie is a rich, full-bodied red.
There’s someone for everyone.
There’s a lot of people on the Earth, it’s true. But most of them don’t fancy you. Do you really think the Universe has carefully hidden the right mate, like an Easter Egg, under a bush somewhere for you to find?
Love will find you if you’re not looking
Maybe. But not if you’re sitting at home watching tv (unless you happen to live in a novel, in which case, relax, a handsome stranger will break down outside your house any day now).
You’ll find love again.
You MIGHT. A lot of people don’t. Romantic love is not some kind of universal human right.
I love being single.
Then why are you dating? Loving being single is about as genuine as liking dinner without dessert. Ok, sometimes we do, but come on, does anyone really WANT to live and die without sex?
You’re beautiful just the way you are.
Define beautiful. You’re just the way you are, beautiful or not.
Things happen for a reason.
Yes they do. They happen because the things before them happened. Life is not organised FOR you, to teach YOU lessons. It just is.
Thanks to Rose: http://livinginfairyland.wordpress.com/
I think that I am good now.